My Princess Diary

nO PlAns........ =(( sob sob

i finally pluck up the courage and popped him the qn on sat
"di, have u ever plan/think abt our future?"
"what future?
"our future lah"
"plan for what?"
"plan lah. got think or not?"
"u got plan? u tell me what is ur plan lah"
" no plan lah. i am asking u"
"ya lah. why must plan"
"ai yo!! just answer my qn"
"No lor"

though i expected this answer and like what honey told me before the 1st answer will always be "NO" but u said must give him some time to think abt it and then ask him again few months later.
so i asked him again "di, so will u go think?"
"no lor. why must plan? take each step as it is lor. why dun u go plan. then tell me ur plans."
this time i was really very sad liao
then i said to myself. ok. one more chance
"di, but if i plan alone, then u dun like then how?"
then he replied "then replan lor"
then i gave up liao
why he cannot be serious when i need him to be?!!!!!!!????

arghhh.....
and then i went "di, no plan also jia liat, got plan also jia liat hor"
and he agreed with me "ya lor"
sigh

anyway, then like i told honey before, he really asked me "why do u ask me tt qn."
then i replied him "coz i want to know"
then he asked "know what?"
"I JUST WANT TO KNOW" (whether am i in your plans)
sigh
and now i know...i am not in his plan lor
he ended his conversation is "my plan is to earn alot of money and get out of singapore"
tt's his plan not OURS lor
afterall he didn't say tt "u MUST tag along with me wherever i go"

anyway, i think he knew tt i was unhappy
can see tt he treated me MUCH better on both weekends
sigh
but do i care, ........sigh
his action only shows tt he is trying to amend something lor. u know as in made up for something
tts all, at least to me....
=((

dun know why,even though i expected this reply from him
but i am still sad is it becoz there is no intention to PLAN.........
time to close another chapter?? =(

posted by yee2 @ Monday, June 09, 2008