My Princess Diary

gO, wEnT, gOnE

today my last day at PFS
i bought the famous muffins from tanjong pagar for the whoever staff in the office.
many are on leave today!! hehehe. saved some money though, best if all one leave

i got to say, i didnt do a proper handing over
as what dear said, i should have informed the TM the week i tendered so tt he will be well prepared to take over the projects if not so unfair to him when on Monday he sees all the stuff in his pc and also on his table and he no idea to start from where
true lor, i think what dear said is very true. very unfair to him lor and esp if it happened to me, i will be damn piss off lor......sorry poh shee, i didn't mean to be so mean and unreasonable.....u can still call me if got any problem/issue, i can still advise if its within my means.......i not tt bad one lor.... =)) *swear*

btw, will guys feel unsecure?? hm......i always thought will lor, coz if girls can feel it, guys should be too.......and i always thought tt dear will not. probably becoz he always tell me "if u want to go, just go lor, i will not stop u. or u can go out with other guys, not an issue with me" he always give me the bo chap attitude but today.......*arm chio* also not sure he acting or what. but i felt tt there is a sense of insecurity in him when ah boi brought his friend, andy, to the karaoke session with us. ah boi, if u reading this, dun leak out this pc of news ok *quick swear*

but dear, i got to tell u lor, if u so happened to read this entry. well, andy may be handsome and young, but, i only have eyes for u lor * awwww.....* so dun u feel insecure ok..... lup u deep deep muack muack ok........ =)) i always dun like the feeling of insecure, so i can understand how bad one will feel.......i am sorry of i let u have tt insecure feeling even for a split second.......

anyway, if dear really did felt insecure for a split second, well, i happy lor, it shows tt he actually do cares for me lor...even though he wants to act tough..... hehe......lets cross our fingers he not just act act only lor.... frankly speaking when we first started, i think dear did felt insecure being with me.....after all....u know the story......but i also did my part to assure him....and what makes him think tt i am feeling secured? i was also insecured but he no do anything to make me feel better lor. he just made it worst. i remembered i told honey and even to dear when we first decided to break up tt i am very stressed being with him, maybe it could be better if we remained as friends....dun asked me why, but i just feel the stress and pressure coming from him when he keeps asking me to settle the problem asap and i trying my best to explain to him "its not within my control if jerk wants to drag and play games with me and the procedures are like this". i remembered tt time dear was not in singapore, he was overseas. so far apart yet can feel the stress, see me so poor thing.......no support leh......except for friends......

well, for tonight, i steady one. i no like him made matters worst, i did my part lor. i hold his hands lor. i did my part to assure him all is fine.......my eyes no wonder ard lor.......lolz........for a split second, andy do looks handsome.....maybe he should not pump too much iron coz he needs to grow taller and not build more muscles.... =p

so who says guys won't feel insecure??? hm............ BULL SHIT lor.as long as u human, all will feel.......

saw ai ai today at cine food court......she saw us!!!!! *faint*......showed dear the sms she send. dear just laff. not sure what he is thinking coz he no say anything except for "omg! she recognised me?" i just smiled. so means what? ai ai promised tt she will keep it as a secret and is happy for me......so now besides stephy and pecky, ai ai knows....... *eyes twinkle*

can u believe it!!!
i was supposed to go to the john little expo sales and in the end i no make it and esther actually go, went and gone. been there, done it......SHIT!! why is it tt i always plan for something and it no takes off........F***
u must be saying, big deal meh? just go tomolo or any of the weekend lor. and since TODAY officially jobless can go any day and any time lor. whats the big fuss.......the fuss is, what if the sales end this coming sunday?? later me attending bb's first month bash and then i just managed to convince dear not to go fishing since he no can wait for me till the bash to go fishing together. he decided to go to new place lor, and i want to go....hehehe......and then so since later no go fishing, sunday sure go one mah. so how to go....and later morning, moi gg to my 1st gym workout lor.......for dear, i must keep myself fit lor...... as long as stuff tt he request is within my means, i will do it for him, for myself and for us.....*touching rite*....anyway, back to the expo sales, so how to go? no time to go lor......damn it!!

i think dear didn't want me to go to JTC's gym coz, hehehe, he always caught me talking to ST when i was there......i think abt 3 times, all 3 times he saw me talking to him....think he buay siong, so he stopped me from gg to JTC 's gym.......see, insecured old man........he should have confidence in himself and me lor......but again, sometimes say is easier than action lor
think i will have a sweet dream later.....hehehe *arm chio*

posted by yee2 @ Saturday, December 01, 2007