My Princess Diary

iNtO DePrEsSiOn..............

went to bed at 9pm last nite
wouldn't get to sleep
tossed and turned whole night
and before i knew it, my alarm rang
arrrggghhhhh...........not sure i got sleep or not
so very the tired

anyway, i was having heavy heart and heavy feet this morning
then i saw the sms from dear "dun say i never call u on weekdays lor. u off the hdp lor"
bloody pork!!
i already very depressed lor. still want to this time come disturb me
true lor, i did complained tt he no call me or sms me
not sure he "sway" or i "heng" tt i no off hdp he no call me, when i off, he chooses to call me
always like this
anyway, i was not feeling too well to reply him. (even till now) =P

reached office, boss was there already
she was busy typing on her lap top
and i dare not go see her
i am at the verge of crying
ya, cry baby!!
i hate goodbyes.......cannot stand it

anyway, 930am.....930am......she finally left........really left........
she just send us email to bid farewell
luckily she did not bid us individually
if not i will cry
dun try me
i really will.........

from 930am onwards, i went into depression............
i told everybody tt i am very sad, very stressed and very depressed
hahaha
r u one of them??
=P

i totally have no mood to work
i just sat there and tell ppl tt i am very sad, i am very depressed and I WANT TO CRY........
sigh

no mood to eat lunchie, went to eat from the vegetarin store
then i thought of having ice cream
ice cream always made me happy
but this time, sigh, ice cream has lost its effect on my depression

worry story no. 2
gf told me tt she and hubby decided to go for IVF
she is only 1 yr older than me lor
i very depressed when i heard it
what if in future i also cannot pop then how?
stephy told me "if u want to have, then plan now lor"
but but but, i never wanted to get marry becoz of bb
i want to eventually settle down when we are ready
so now not ready meh? u might ask
*wonder* maybe dear can enlighten me
stephy tried to cheer me up
"technolody is so advanced now"
but but but, technology is technology, human is always human lor
some things just cannot be rushed into
but stephy never give up on me lor, she even went to the extend of allowing me to pinch garreth on his fatty cheek!!! just to cheer me up
omg!!
can't wait lor......=P

so sad, so worry, so stressed so depressed!!!!
=((

posted by yee2 @ Thursday, July 03, 2008