My Princess Diary

=((

my god bro came to sing
coz he was bumming ard in china so his parents finally send him over
dad took the liberty to take care of him
he doesn't stay with us though, he stayed with his papa's family
but he will pop by everyday and stayed from morning to evening time
doing what i also not sure
but the little one said tt he sits in the living room, watch tv or play his comp game... =P

was told tt he wanted to study a finance course in singapore
"his maths very good. very good with figures" my dad said
so got my other cousin who studied finance and marketing to help search for relevant courses

i told dad yesterday, why not just bring him down to the campus
they will have those counsellors or whatever they called them now to assist us in finding the right course and also the procedures. who knows his current qualification does not qualify him to study finance coz he has no basics......so he needs to start somewhere. so instead of us sitting here and guess this and tt, why not just bring him down to the school

so dad brought him down to SMU today and this guy assisted them. but too bad the course has started and so he will need to wait for the next sem which is sept next yr.........dad said cannot wait tt long. so we need to find another one. i told him what abt SIM? and he just jumped to the conclusion tt SIM and SMU will be the same, they have missed the sem. and i was like "wtf!! can't u just enquriy abt it? if email no response, then go down or call them up lor. if they can go to SMU why not SIM?"

anyway, up to them lah, u know lor, old folks think differently.........we asked when in doubt, they think they are always rite, they know everything.

anyway, dad told me they decided to go for the course offered by RAFFLES COLLEGE. frankly speaking, i no hear abt them. but dad said the course is offered by UNIVERSITY OF WALES. so i told him, all schools can tell u tt their courses are offered by reputable UNIVERSITY from where and where, but we as consumers must make sure tt the paper tt came with it end of the day is recognised by the respective bodies or even co in singapore or best if gobally recognised. coz his god son may not want to stay in singapore for the rest of his life. u know what i mean.
he just want to keep insisting tt the school gurantee tt the course is recognised, the university is reputable and recognised. so i told him why not get uncle to check with his ex coll who are still working in the bank industry whether they recognise such a paper and such a school or such a course. i meant well afterall.

just like last evening, i was just asking him which university he studied in previously? which level? study what? he so proudly told me tt he is from UNIVERSITY OF XXXX and he studied for 2 yrs didn't finish his 4 yr course. and he laffed. i told him "dad, this is a serious matter. when we talk serious. be serious ok. this is no laffing matter" and then he said in a serious tone "i am seriously talking to u lor." sigh *speechless* and so i went "i never heard of the university for ur infor and he no finished his study, consider as a dropout here in singapore context. so pls dun go out and boast loudly to others tt ur god son is from what UNIVERSITY. coz its embrassing enough tt he is a drop out!!" not tt i want to look down upon my god bro but i dun dad to go ard boasting, end of the day, he disgraced him only. u dun get far by boasting lor.....ppl sees results. i told him, if he wants he can tell ppl tt his god son is from university of xxx but he stopped schooling coz he find tt singapore has a better edcuation system so he wants to come here pursue his education. or whatever shit lor.

ok whatever, anyway, whatever i said is shit lor. they dun like to listen........ =(( then why bother to ask me??!!?? tts why sometimes i dun want to answer them or be bother to talk to them. coz they just dun want to hear what i say. my words are not music to their ears.....so be it. do i care??? though i looked like i dun care a damn but really I DO CARE LOR. and IT HURTS badly ok. esp when dad asked mama to called sister just now and mama said tomolo then call since not urgent and dad said "no lah. call now. its very urgent."

so what is urgent!???!!?? dad told sister all abt what happened today at SMU and then gg to settle for RAFFLES COLLEGE, blah blah blah. even those stuff which i said abt whether the paper is recognised or not??? but of course he didn't say i say lah, he just said tt he afraid the paper not recognised.

i am very the upset, disappointed, depressed..... =((
small matter?
no lor, at least not to me
from young till TODAY!! i am always not the apple
i am always the one "who dun do well in school. not as friendly as the sister. dun know how to present herself. shy infront of strangers. useless bum. blah blah blah." the list goes on and on and on. my skinned is so thicked over the years and all i do is keep quiet or smile politely at my dad's friends. "ya, i am the gong gong one. so what?"
fine!! i dun really bother. as i said, if nobody loves me, then i will just love myself even more. as simple as tt
but it hurts bad lor
want to find a bf who will loves me dearly, like tt also difficult meh?
why me?
what have i done to deserve it!!!
already so painful.....yet this.......told myself tt i will not cry, but sorry to say, i am tearing when typing this..........but i do have to be strong yeah
positive thinking.......one day my prince charming will come....in my dreamz though.*lame smile*

posted by yee2 @ Tuesday, June 24, 2008