My Princess Diary

I WoN't LeT u WaLk AwAy...

this morning, chairman said " i want to talk to u"
he has a face ma chiam i owed him thousands of dollars
so u see, boss went to look for him to come out with a proposal for me to reconsider

anyway, chairman came and yakked to me
"i never asked u to do admin work. i never ask u to do all these.( i was printing doc) i never ask u to write minutes. tts not what i have in mind for u. tts why whenever we have the campus meeting, i will always asked "how come sy not here. she should be involved in the contracts issues"....blah blah blah....... "u not sure of ur scope of work. nobody communicated with u. we dun talk now. we wait till jt and hy comes back then we talk. now talk no use. i won't let u walk away".....blah blah blah......i care????

in the first place, boss told me "it was chairman's decision to change your job scope" on my 1st day of work. now he said he NEVER asked me to do. then who?? who dares to over write his decision.......*pondering*

anyway, i am serving notice now. whether u like it or not, 13th my last day. pay me or not, up to u. i am doing wat our agreement asked me to do and i am doing it. u can talk all u want, proposed all u want, but I AM LEAVING. as i said, dun wait till i do something then u do something abt it!!! pui!! doesn't work on me. i am not those kind who do something to make something worked for me. in the first place, u know what is happening then DUN PUSH YOUR LUCK WITH ME!!

anyway, i had a talk with esther today. tts why i came home at 11pm. hehehe.....=P she gave me a lesson in life. which i think it somehow meaningful and true.......she said "if the co is paying u much more than an admin staff to do an admin work, then why not just do it" i totally agreed with what she said. but, i dun want to end up as a PA end of the day. tts definitely not what i want. and if i am doing purely admin work, then why not? she even said i should structure the timing of office hours till its suits me. go home what time, set myself??!?? everyday i told myself tt i should leave by 730pm, but i always worked till 8 plus.........not very good......

she told me am i expecting too much??!!?? as in like, i wanted only 5 days (who doesn't), fixed working hours, can leave on the dot( who doesn't), less work, more pay (who doesn't)......i dun think i am expecting alot. coz i am sure there are ppl out there who expected more than me. i am fine with working late and OTs, BUT definitely NOT EVERY DAY AND EVERY WEEKEND!! as i said I NEED A LIFE!!!!! since employed for a 5 days week, then i also expect to work 5 days, once in awhile weekend has to work, then so be it. i will work. but not EVERY WEEKEND and its not half day, its like ONE WHOLE DAY!! ridiculous!!!

she told me running of the project is also a contract, which is equivalent to what i am doing. i replied tt i do agreed with her. the project is a contract by itself. but i was employed to vet contracts not run a contract. then she said mayeb co dun have so many contracts for me to vet tts why i was asked to "run contract". so i told her in that case dun employed ppl. she told me cannot wait till last min then employ ppl mah. so must employ on stand by. pls lor, employ on stand by, then u commit me to this project so end of the day u will come and tell me "sorry, sy, since u already running this project, i cannot take u out of it coz the client and everybody is used to u being the project secretary liao. so u just continue doing until the project ends ok" then what can i say???!!?? i only have myself to blame for staying on lor and in the end i am not gg anywhere............anyway, just to reinforce what i say, i quote and unquote my boss, he said tt "chairman said tt u concentrate on running projects and let E do the contracts part".........so u see, contract and running projects is not equivalent, not the same thing........

then she said what if co raise my pay. then will i stay? the issue here is not abt money.......they are paying me more than what an admin should be getting. so why should i be unhappy abt it? the only unhappy thingy is tt, i no ot, so when i work sat and sun, i get NOTHING!! which is not very good. coz last time when i still getting this $x (same amt), i dun have OTs and i get to leave on the dot..........so since no pay raise, no increasement then why i am doing until like this, no day no night, no life.........like what dear said "more salary will means more responsibilities and ppl expectation of u will also be greater" but but but......like what i told esther i fully understand this statement made and also agreed with it. but i am not getting a higher pay, i am getting the same amt as my last drawn......so why work more??!!?? =((

but she said something tt is very true " u never voiced out to ur boss tt u dun like the job scope. its only now tt u threw the letter then u tell him. u are being unfair to him and co. coz u never give them a chance to do something and make ur stay here better." this is very true......but boss knew it. first few days, he told me "my job scope still very vague and undefined. coz they also dun know what they can let me do. but we will work something out" i waited and see what would be done......so what have been done??? hm............

bascially, esther told me tt chairman and boss may say tt i never give them a chance and what do i really want. what if they can give me what i want then how? will i stay? i told esther i won't. coz in the first place, they are in need of ppl to do what i am doing. so in the end, it will be do A + B so whats the pt??? still doing A. already so busy liao. u think i got time left?? i doubt so lor......

so now it all boils down to......... job scope and the time......1st day hr already said, the ppl here worked very hard one. so we must change mindset to work like them. i changed, tts why i no grumble too much abt working nite on weekdays but PLEASE DUN TOUCH my weekends.....i need it to recharge myself.......

anyway, to walk or not walk away, IT'S MY CALL not yours lor.....now u want to make me stay, what also can. once i stay, true colours will come out. i will not stay liao. and i meant it. regardless of what u offered. 13th last day i will be gone........u either pay or dun pay me, its up to u. i made my stand very clear....... whether u like it or not. whether will it shed a bad light on me, whether will turn the ending to a bad one. so be it. u cannot force ppl to do what they dun like or want to do.........

esther gave me a very meaningful lesson tonight. i also want to stop hopping. when i got this job, i was so happy. dun forget this is what i wanted and not tt XXX. but if this is not what i want, then why stop here.........

posted by yee2 @ Monday, March 03, 2008